JESUS LOVES ME!
i dont know, this may sound kinda like my last post, but whatever... Last night in church Tom talked about God's love. The title of the message was "Jesus Loves Me, this I know." To be Honest, over the last few months i have been going through an ongoing struggle with sin. it seems like a really bad roller coaster ride, ill fail miserably, and then for a while i get better, and then i fail again. and its kinda been going on for a while now and im tired. i dont want to keep doing it, but i just keep going back. and then last night, when im feeling really guilty about this ongoing pattern, even doubting my salvation, Tom talked about how Jesus knows EVERYTHING about me and yet he LOVED me enough to die for me. In the midst of this sin i was really doubting whether or not i really love God and could even call myself a christian, and then, Last night Tom read a quote from James Boice where he said to a little girl that if she didnt think that she loved God and she wanted to, that she should just keep telling herself "JESUS LOVES ME!" over and over again. i dont know what it was about that that affected me, but i tried it, and its just been awesome, its like God just opened my eyes, and i have just felt really different since that message. at this point i feel like i didnt even know who i was 48 hours ago, and my prayer is that it will stay this way. i know there will be temptations, and i know that i will fail in some way, shape, or form in the future, but right now i feel like i'm "on top of the world, "and i just keep telling myself "Jesus Loves Me; Jesus Loves ME; JESUS LOVES ME!" and right now i can't help but feel so happy every time i tell myself that, it sends chills down my spine. that Jesus could love a sinner like me enough to die for me. its just an AWESOME feeling of Love and Forgiveness. Then, after the Message, we had communion, and it just felt so...real, so...honest, so...i dont know, but it felt awesome! and i just dont want to forget this. then, the last song we sang that just completed the whole service was "Jesus Paid it All" and after that i was so touched, i felt like God just laid his hand on me and told me "its ok, I'm here, I died for you" and the only words i could think of were "thank you God." and after the service i just sat down with my hands on my face saying that over and over again. So i just want to thank God again for loving me enough to die for me.
